Mommy Be You

It’s been almost three months since my last blog post. I don’t know why it’s hard to start out my blogs but I just wanted to get some things off my chest and maybe you guys can relate or not. Lately Iv been kinda irritated and I don’t know if it’s because of not having money or just being drained. I recently been working full time since the beginning of my April due to a teacher having to go to India for a month so I took over her class while she is gone. In the beginning I was part time 6:30 to 1 and I wasn’t exhausted or tired but this month it’s been 7 to 4 and being alone with 16 kids all ages of 4 1/2 and 5. I understand that toddlers can be a lot but 16 of them oh my goodness. I’m constantly irritated that kids don’t listen and my own kids at home don’t listen and so then it makes even more stressful and more irritating.

Don’t get me wrong I like being a teacher and teaching young kids but how can you expect to teach if know one cares. I recently discovered that since I took on a full time position I wasn’t gonna get any raise or nothin even though I should have since I was only supposed to be part time. The last two or three weeks it’s been exhausting, tiring and my body is just in pain so when I get home and my kids want to hug me or play with me I don’t wanna. I’m sooo exhausted and tired I don’t wanna do nothin and it’s sad cause I know that my kids have missed me all day.

Iv realized it’s time to put my notice in for work because I know that my kids need me. They need me and it’s not that I don’t wanna work it’s just that nothin is getting done at home. There’s no routine, no firmness there’s nothin and as ocd I am. I have to have a clean place, I have to have my kids go to sleep at a decent time. There needs to be a system in my home if there isn’t I’m just off and moody. At the end of the day my husband needs to work him staying home not getting much done is not cutting it with me. That’s been going on the last two almost three months but I hope everyone is having a good Sunday keep your head up and know that good things will come.

The Bible verse of the day “Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your god. I’ll give you strength. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.” – Isaiah 41:10