Hello, I know it’s been some time and with me working and being a mom to three girls it’s been hard. Don’t get me wrong I enjoy working but my two older toddlers have been on a major rampage. I seriously can’t catch a breath plus having a one year old who’s go through the end of her teething stage. I recently have been struggling with anxiety attacks, depression and high blood pressure. It’s mainly to do with my kids and the rest is being financially unstable, Iv recently said how my husband been getting laid off and having me come in and work. My income is not much I only work part time and so that’s just not enough for the bills and he would be making at he’s recent jobs $20-21hr.
To have him come in and take care of most of the bills it would help tremendously. I just want to be financially stable not just for me but for my family, I don’t want to argue with my husband because I’m stressed out about money. My number ONE priority is making sure my kids are taking care of and when I see that we’re struggling on doing that not only does it make me sad but it makes me angry. I’m really hoping for good things to come for my family because we absolutely need it so Iv just been exhausted with having money and then going broke for taking care of my kids and bills. I’m all for helping out it’s when I’m working and my husband isn’t and he’s just been low just because we’re broke and it sucks so he didn’t have the energy to look for jobs. When I see that he’s not trying it upsets me a bit, Iv had to sit down and talk to him that he needed to find a job cause its draining me physically and mentally.
Iv started taking vitamins and it has somewhat help me with my anxiety and depression. I’m not usually a vitamin/medicine type girl cause I usually forget to take them but not this year. I really wanna try to take care of my health and body and relationships with (husband, friends, parents and my kids) that is my goal. I’m happy that my husband has gotten out of his funk, got an interview on Monday so I’m super happy I’m praying he gets it. He has been super optimistic and positive, that’s one of the things I love about him cause ever since Iv had kids Iv been struggling with my anxiety and depression. Yes, there’s been times where Iv had to explain to him what I was feeling and why I was feeling like that. I’m very grateful to have him there may be times where I wanna choke him out but I’m truly grateful to have him he’s my best friend and couldn’t ask for anyone els.
Everything has been okay, I’m trying to calm my anxiety and elevate my depression but it takes time. Good things are coming I just know it and when that happens i will definitely praise the lord cause it’s been a shitty almost three months being broke. Iv been readying a book that I order and thats been partially helping me stay calm, Iv been writing and of course taking my vitamins. I will say not to toot my own horn but I’m really proud of my self for going into work on time for a month almost two months this may sound funny but this is probably the longest job Iv ever stayed at. I literally took a morning shift so it’s 6am to 1pm and it works out great for me, I enjoy my coworkers that’s a plus and it’s just. I feel that I’m in a good environment but all in all I’m very blessed to be surrounded by my kids and loved ones. Enough about me time for an uplifting bible verse cause I think we all need to hear.😊
“For I know the plans have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Jeremiah 29:11
Mommy Be You 
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