Mommy Be You

Hi everyone I hope everyone had a good week and a good day. I’m so excited to announce my news so I recently been applying for jobs and I applied for this job. Got an interview and got the job that day and I was so nervous cause I thought I wasn’t gonna get it. But for some reason I felt like I got this job just because I felt like they wanted to give me a shot and I understand i haven’t really worked much since 2015 so it felt really good when I got the job offer.

As you know, Iv been dealing with some deep depression this year and trying to find why I was depressed. After being a stay at home mom for 5 years, it really made me realize that I don’t want to be a stay at home mom forever. Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids and spending time with my kids, but you also want yourself to be happy too. I know that there is more for me out there, I just have to get out there to do it and I think it’s that time. These past couple of month Iv been noticing signs and I know that’s probably weird, but I’m a very spiritual person, so I do believe in signs and astrology etc.

I’m just ready for a new start for my family. I want my family to be finally stable and not have to worry or be stress because I’m tired of it. The depression and stress has made me lost so much weight, I was at 92lbs now down to 87lbs. It already sucks as is because I have a high metabolism but when I’m stressed, I can’t seem to eat or have the interest to eat. I just feel like I need to focus a little more about myself and I know that may seem selfish,, but I have always been that person to put my loved ones first and me last, and I got that from my grandmother. My grandmother had the biggest heart and was nurturing and always took care of everyone but herself.

I just want everyone to know that yes it’s okay to take care of your loved ones but don’t forget about yourself. You’re important to, you matter too. Remember you are allowed to rest, recover and reflect. You don’t need to be constantly successful and ultimately happy. Ask yourself, does it really make me happy or does it just meet my need for external approval? “ Do what you feel is right – you’ll be criticized anyway.”