Mommy Be You

Sometimes I wish for better days. I mean we all wish for something but sometimes it can come true and sometimes the wish will happen when it’s the right time. Lately Iv been struggling with depression, anxiety and stress but usually they come in waves but Iv been struggling with eating and sleeping. After I had my 3rd daughter my weight was 136lbs my original weight before I got pregnant was 97lbs and now I’m down to 91lbs.

I already struggled with eating since I have a high metabolisms but lately i just haven’t wanted to eat. After waking up in the morning I usually have a cup of coffee and then water for the rest of the day. I wouldn’t eat for a couple of hours after waking up and my body would tell me I’m hungry (growl) but my mind didn’t want to eat and I know it sounds crazy but that’s literally how I feel. I feel like it has to do a lot with not getting much sleep and not getting any nutrients but I hope I can come out of it soon.

Today I just felt super down with myself because I don’t know why I can’t take care of myself. I can take care of others pretty well but me NO! And I’m trying to do better for me try to self love and self care for me. I have a beautiful family a husband that loves and cares about me very much and three gorgeous girls that love me and I’m so eternally grateful for this life that I have. I’m just sad and I pray that everything will be okay and I know everything will be okay.

It probably won’t be okay right now but when it does it will feel like a relief like all the pieces are getting put back together slowly. Yes! You will have a little fall out moment but it’s not the end of the world and I know, you know that. It’s okay to cry or to vent whatever will get those feelings out and just know that better days are coming and when it does happen just be in the moment.